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Me and rocksteady johns lizard <3 i love him lol 

John dyed my hair lol

John highlighted my hair :) 

Hes soooo sweet he spent ages doing it bless him, 

And he done a good job lol i was skeptical lol but it turned out good gor his first time, i never even asked him he just done it lol 

Its amazing

John was pretending to be david attenborough hahaha. 

Im so happy me Have done so much already it's unbelievable we went on the canal for a walk Which was really really romantic, we sat in the sun and waited for the lock to open. 

We was running round like lunatics chasing each other and climbing around lol it was just so sweet <3 we filmed it all and laugh back now, we was like little cave men hahaha

ohh no

Sooo this weekend has been amazing Me and john went to a PUB with the whole family for a karaoke night, so there was me mom dad my nan and grandad and john and i must admit it was an amazing night out ! We went so that my dad roger could go on the karaoke as he is a professional singer except i sumhow got dragged up and got the worst stage fright ever i made my self look like an absolute prat doing it i was just getting stage fright really bad i was just staring at the screen with the song words on just looking like dooh !!! it was embarrasing i just forgot to sing for ages i had all these people watching me looking at me and laughing so i fort do you no what im just gonna go for it and i sang with all my heart and i really ended up enjoying it i got a few claps so i was happy. i had to leave after the karaoke as me and john was going to a party at his friends house and that wass amazing tooo we was all laughing and having a fab time and getting drunk, we left at four in the morning and i cant even remember walking home, it was just one of them really good nights out and it was nice because his house is really warm and inviting so yeah i met some new people which was really fun and me and john had such a laugh and bonded more. over to saturday sooo we woke up feeling awfullll !!! i mean we was like whats going on still mashed from the night before lol, so we got up and went to the pet shop to get johns lizard some hoppers and mario worms, so we took a detore to mcdonalds ahahha and we had sooo much to eat like 3 double cheese burgers fries everrrythinggg lol, wwe was stuffed after ahahah, we watched a film called friday and just couldnt stop laughing at it lol. but the weekend over all was brilliant

Romantic walk

So it was johns birthday yesterday so i agreed to come down and have a drink and a good time,
as i got there we both got showers as wed been at work sweating and what not and got changed, we went to the shop and got some booze and fags and made our way back to johns house.
we got in had a couple of shots and watched tv and cuddled which was really nice :) we started to get tipsy so we went on a little walk lol, but this little walk turned into an hour haha, and we couldnt stop laughing there was all these crazy people around so we was describing them as charactors and telling each other all these funny stories.
we laughed that much we could barely move hahaha. so we got back and watched a documentary on space and other planets and i was stillll laughing he makes me really giggle and then we went to sleep as i couldnt drive home due to i was drunk haha.
all i remember is waking up and feeling like shit but it was a really funny night we picked up our mate on the way to work and carried on laughing hes such a sweetheart :) and im falling for him

so its johns birthday **

its johns birthday today :)
i have bought him 2 tshirts boxers socks a new mug a badge and some body products.
i hope he likes them haha ! he looks all happy bless him :) cant wait to go his and chill as were both nackerd from being on the phone all night haha.
hes waiting for his birthday beatings now and the mumps lol. true birthday tradition in england. i am ready for another long ass day at work now :( good bye all.

shyness

i still feel so shy around john, i just hope he likes me like i like him i can see he does but just feel really sceptical as i aint used to being treated nice lol.
i want it to last its his birthday tomorrow so i will be going to spend it with him and hopefully have a good day.
no girlfriend of his has bought him a bday gift so i want to make sure its special :)
i feel like a little kid with a crush but hes just one of a kind and i dont want to let him slip through my fingers as i hope hes the one :)
i think this will work out as long as he can put up with me loool

This blog is about my love life

I was dating a man called ryan for four years, he was a control freak he made me soo ill from mind games and constantly controlling me that i thought id never get away! he was what i was used to as he was my first boyfriend... One big huge mistake that was my mind is still messed up because of the stress!

So as it went on it got harder and harder to deal with i stopped going out. stopped seeing my friends.
i even got rid of my phone because everytime it went off he would find something to have a go at me for it. he was cruel and horrible to me and all i did was be there for him!

I went into work as normal and as i came in my boss was walking around with this man, and my gosh he was hottt!!!
hansom and gorgeous i was thrilled to be working at the same place as him. so we started to talk and we both love the same things were so similar its unreal !
only after a few days i new i liked him so i ended it with ryan turned my phone off and deleted him off facebook to stop contact.
He kept popping back up out of no where so i kept on saying its over!!! bla bla bla ... and the more me and john hung out the more i liked him he showed me what happiness is and showed me that what ryan was doing was wrong and when i think about what i went through it breaks my heart !!!
John took me out for a romantic meal and it was lovely we clicked straight away and i new from then that i would like to make a go of it.
so we then went bowling and done some activities and it was sooo funny we laughed all night long, i am so into john its unreal !
we have also been to a party together hes such a beautiful person inside and out that im starting to fall in love with him ! and i just hope he feels the same.

he means alot to me and im so lucky to have him ! he treats me how i deserve and were always laughing ! :) hes my true love - i hope :)